Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It’s heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare
If you want more love, why don’t you say so?
If you want more love, why don’t you say so?
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Now playing: John Mayer – Heartbreak Warfare
via FoxyTunes
i’ve been procrastinating on writing on this page for DAYS, so now i decided to sit down & finally finish this overdue entry (: &i do realize that my last PROPER entry was on the 8th of January. HAHA. this is so unlike me cus i used to blog pretty regularly (: ha.
so woah, its monday. weekend is over & i still haven got my shits done yet. D: so yes, today marks the last 2 week of school BEFORE a week of finals & then we’re done with freshmen year. xD time flew by darn fast doesn’t it? so yeah, 3 weeks of school gone & 3 more weeks & i’m done. (Y) i must say, i’m pretty excited for the end of freshmen year. xD past weeks have been alright i suppose? i have been coming in late for class pretty regularly & that HAVE to change for the next 2 weeks, i’m serious. i can’t fucking afford a -0.5 anymore. D: classes been pretty alright. (: i’m starting to hate cognitive & that’s bad seeing that it used to be my favorite module. but it just ridiculous when there you are trying but she thinks you’re not trying so whatever. urgh. marketing module is draining our brain cells away BUT its fun w my team members (: web & new media is flipping boring as USUAL. ha. communications is cool. (: maths is fun too (: that cus i understand. DUH.
so i got my modules chosen. basically, i don’t need to choose anything cus its pre-fixed with 4 modules & i got one day free (: i just hope i don’t need to repeat any modules, hopefully. all 4 modules consists of programming so god bless me! Application for my change of course got accepted (: &i’m happy, i guess? i don’t know. i submitted the application with no high hopes at all but yeah, i got accepted. so YAY (: i mean whatever GOD has planned for me, it should be right (:
class today was alright. did on RSS feeds & everything & i definitely enjoy it cus it wasn’t boring theory zzzz & we even ended class early, like before 3pm we were done with class. (: ain’t that awesome? yup, it sure is (: haha.
so past few weeks have been, i don’t know miserable? there were happy times & there were sad times. i spent days waiting for him to come online. but no, to no avail. so what the fuck. D: i stopped using my mobile phone for 2 weeks already & i’m totally fine without it. (:
i had a breakdown the other night last week & caiti did something really really really nice for me (: she did up for a Jeydon Wale photo of me & him & a very nice background for my twitter. enjoy them & comment (:

hunter & me <3

JEYDON WALES <3
i swear its damn nice (: OMGGGG WHORE, i LOVE you <333 homo all the way darling (: tyvm for this 2 stuffs. (: i always have so much fun talking to you & you’re such a nice person (: always putting a smile on my face (; &don’t you be upset whore, Justin Bieber will soon follow you & #prayformaryah will be a TT too (; i love you whore <3333
&last tuesday, something nice came into the mail which is my mail from Katelin (: i didn’t even know she was sending me stuffs so i got really shocked! &i really love all the stuffs that she gave me (:

necklace & a NZ coin (:

letter from katelin <3

DAIRY MILK CHOCS <3
so yup! those were all the stuffs that katelin’s sent me & i love every single thing of it (: plus, i got another heart necklace (; YAY.
&then on wednesday, the mail that i have been anticipating for ARRIVED. my package from Joel (: YAY. he got his in the morning & i got mine when i got home (: &i loved every single thing too (: plus he wrote something really sweet in the letter which made me tear just a lil bit (: but omg, he’s awesome (:

(:

(:

NOM.

HALVES <3

together <3
dayum. i love everything he sent me! <3 we now have the same pendant, ring & bracelet together <3 i simply love Joel <33 ’nuff said. (:
so anyway, i’ve been on tinychat too damn often that i think i might need a rehab for it soon
haha. was on it for hours today in class. &on saturday i was there from 630 all the way till 330. LOL. i need to do something better. ahaha. but anyway, i like spending time w my sis- Nadi, Junt & Lilz. <3
tonight is just simply awful D: it dawned to me that 2 weeks from now, it’ll be a year since we first met <3 &look what is left of us now? i never cried so bad for ages & today the tears just never did stop. i just kept on crying & crying for you & i hate that. i don’t want to keep on crying for you. i don’t want to be hurt by you. i had enough of you hurting me, really. i don’t know why we planned bout our times when you get here. i don’t know why we got all excited. i don’t know why i gave so much more the second time. i don’t know why we had a second chance. i don’t know what happened. i don’t know why we ended. i don’t know if we weren’t in 2 different countries will things be different? i don’t know what will make us last. i don’t know if we ever have a 3rd time. i don’t know if you’ll ever come down here again. </3
&i don’t know bout you. you told me you’ll be on regularly BUT i never do see you. D: every night, every day, i wait for you BUT you never turns up. i’m tired of waiting. i’m tired of all your lies. yes lies, because you told me you’ll be on but you just disappear just like that, so yes, you lied to me. i want to talk to you again. every night. i want you to make me happy, to make me smile. to call me your baby & tell me i love you. i just want to be able to talk to you. sigh.
by the way, rachel is back up in Melbourne so i’m pretty much a lonely bitch now ): i’ll miss you babe! ): but i’ll cyu again in june. take care of yourself alright? &remember, i’m here for you always even if i’m not feeling all too good myself. so come find me & i’ll be there for you because don’t forget you’re magical & i’m fabulous & i’m your personal cheerleader <3
btw, i love daria too! <333 YAY to being 19th this year <3 i love you & caiti lots <333
so yes, i’m done with this. i wanna sleep & forget about everything. i hope i can. sigh.
xoxoxo-
atiqah.