fuck this shitz. i’m breaking down tonight.
i can’t do this shit anymore.
; tonight. this time.
November 10, 2009 at 23:50 (tiqah. (:)
; will you please?
November 9, 2009 at 20:41 (tiqah. (:, when an aussie is associated., when love is associated.)
tell me you’ll call tonight, please? ♥
; shane dawson. john mayer. paola sauso. you. (:
November 9, 2009 at 03:36 (tiqah. (:, when an aussie is associated., when happiness is associated., when love is associated.)
take back now, my life you’re stealing
yesterday was over, today i’m without you
runaway this time without you
and all i’d ever thought you be
that face is tearing holes in me again
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Now playing: The All-American Rejects – Straightjacket Feeling
via FoxyTunes
its 1.10 am & yes, i’m here. i am trying in vain to actually do up web & new media notes BUT it seems that i’m failing terribly. ): i spent my weekends, i don’t know doing what. ): twitter is super addictive & distracting. what is worst is when my tweetdeck is functioning! ): so yes, its monday morning. (Y) in the wee morning. this week marks the 6th week of school! (Y) 4 more weeks of school till i fly to langkawi & have my very own short getaway trip! (Y) you don’t know how much i appreciate getaways, really!
so this week, i don’t know. its fun when i’m in school & is around people BUT it sucks when i’m alone, alone with my own thoughts. it just keep going back to you. ): i tried hard to forget you, to not wanting to going back to you BUT its difficult. i keep coming back to you. 216 hours without you was fcked up! ): i swear, it was. &now, you’re gonna be gone for 3 fcking weeks to London, fuck shitz, i don’t know how i’ll survive through but i guess i will. 3 fcking weeks with an hour of transit to Sing tomorrow & then maybe i don’t knw a trip to sing after that? ):
so yes, school been great, i suppose. crapped a whole lot of shitz. (: watched Paranormal Activity on friday. (: &i actually love maths on friday cus finally i got some nice team mates who are serious w the works & taught me. plus faci help me a lot! (Y) yay! spent friday afternoon with my babe! (: went down to amk hub to get her contacts. good time spent over lunch & desserts. (Y) it’s been a long time since we hung out & i really miss her so. (: i’m sorry i didn’t attend your concert but glad to know you had a good concert & everything. (:
okay so marketing UT was errr… quite okay… i couldn’t do a few questions, blame myself for not studying. TSK. well just gotta do better for daily grades & the other 2 UTs. oh well. my post today is jumbled up. i’m writing everything everywhere. just having paragraph but its jumbled up & all. i don’t know. just like my mind, all confused & everything else’s. =/
oh yes! i’m so sorry chandni for not going to your deepavali dinner. i’m really sorry but something came up! :s
&oh! i had such a good dream. if only it came true. then life will be perfect. okay, no, it still won’t cus i don’t know but yeah, if that dream came true, i’ll be fcking happy girl!!! i swear. i ♥ you rachel tina teo shan mei! (: i can’t wait to hang out with you again. y’know i seriously think im losing all my social life ever since i start schooling at RP. anyway, i love you, i miss you & fuckk i’m fcking not lesbian to those who thinks that i’m one for saying all this! but yes, i miss hanging out w you, just chilling & crapping away! can’t wait to do all that with you again. YAY. i love you. can’t wait to see you. hope we’ll see each other before i fly off. ♥
&yes, specially for my darlings & my mates like siewyi, imah, tai, fadhil & many others who are seating for the A’s, ALL THE BEST to you guys! (: give it all you guys have. (: i’ll be praying for you! (: (: (: all the bestest luck to you guys!
&&&&yes, twitter been great. i’ve met some amazing people there. (: mostly from germany! my fav country ever since i studied it in sec 3! (: hahah. &i think i need to cut down on my computer usage. yeah, you guys shud prolly check out John Mayer’s twitter page & then you’ll get what i mean by cutting down on my usage. (: heheh.
&&&&&&yes! i found the perfect therapy of all time. so now when i’m all down & everything, i know what to do alrdy. (: haha. basically, if you need to cheer yourself up, go to youtube & typed in Shane Dawson. (: he’s amazing, seriously. his videos are like awesome. (: &he’s hot. (: haha. it’s like when you watch him, you’ll go “oh! he’s so fcking hot, i so fcking wanna fuck him!” that kind of thing. okay, not really, i’m just kidding…… not haha. he’s really funny & we’ll brighten up your day! &another way, its to go to FML website. okay, some of the things that happened were really sad, like really FML moments BUT some are hilarious, really. &yeah, i got that idea from Shane Dawson. (: hahah. but he rawks seriously. (: should really go & watch his vid. (: me like it a hell lot. falls in loves. (: hahaha. okay, i’m crazy. LOL.
&oh! you gotta check out Paola Sauso. (: he has such an amazing voice. seriously. &he’s new cover on Jordin Sparks Tattoo, is like WOW. blew me right away. (: haha. it’s really very nice. AMAZING. like seriously. haha. okay, i’m just repeating what i’m saying. hehe. &oh, something is wrong w me! it’s like half hour to 4 & i’m not sleepy! oh no! :s &i’ve got like school in a few hours time. nice one tiqah. &no, i’m not suffering from insomnia or whatever shitz. i think i’m gonna sleep after this. (: haha.
actually, i’m waiting for G + trying my best to study but obviously i failed. ): &i don’t think G is coming online so whatever. haha. i’m lazy too wait. it’s like late at night & i need to sleeep. he’s prolly working till late since he hasn’t replied my email also. so yeah, i’m just gonna go to bed now.
&yes, if you’ve stayed on reading till here, i’m sorry, i think i wasted your time letting you read this shitz. i’m just rambling on & on. :s sorry. but nevertheless, hope you had a good laugh or whatever by reading this post. (:
&&&yes, i’ve got a fcking tumblr. but you won’t get my url. it’s kinda private cus there is stuff tht i wrote there that i won’t write on either my blogger or wordpress. or even if i did, i password protect it or privatized it, so yeah. but if you’re attentive to my twitter, you’ll get my tumblr url. its connected, both of them. (: hehhe.
okay, good night. love you guys. (:
because a few wonderful days is definitely more worth it. <3
&just so if you’re interested, i took like one and a half hour to finish this entry. -.-
xoxoxo-
atiqah.
; meet me halfway.
November 2, 2009 at 22:37 (tiqah. (:, when crocop is associated.)
can you meet me halfway, right at the borderline?
that’s where i’m gonna wait for you.
i’ll be lookin’ out night and day
took my heart to the limit, and this is where i stay
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Now playing: Black Eyed Peas – Meet Me Halfway
via FoxyTunes
week 5! (Y) happy monday everyone. (: YAY. so today i wasn’t late for school. (: wanted to be late but decided against it. (: &well, it kinda do me good. (: haha. cus i saw my best mate at the POSB & he kena owned. (: sorry, i still find it funny. told you i get amused by stupid lil things. (: hehe. but it was a nice way to start the week & the day. (: heee. i dig your flip-flops. (: really. besides seeing him this morning, what made class enjoyable today was that every time me & walton look at each other, we’ll just burst out laughing. damn funny. keep on laughing. LOL.
other than that, class was terrible. have i mention that i hate my web & new media communication?! she is fcking anal, i swear. keep on picking on me & my group. fcker. i was so pissed today. &i can see my grades flying, can say bye bye to a B grade, don’t even talk about an A grade please. ): i’m damn depressed now. ): i damn sad. stupid faci. ):
Cognitive UT tomorrow. hope i’ll do fine. (: hehe. which me luck okay?! (: haha.
&plus, i missed my babe. ): haven seen/talk to her for a fcking long time already. ): hello babe. (: i miss you a hell lot. (: hope you’re doing good. (: tty soon. 
kay, i’m either gonna sleep or do some revision. BYE.
oh yes, i’ve got several posts that is locked now. sorry, somethings are not meant for everyone eyes. (: ask me for the password, if you’re interested. ♥
xoxoxo-
atiqah.
Protected: ; 194. maybe if we didn’t </3
November 2, 2009 at 20:04 (tiqah. (:, when crocop is associated.)
Protected: ; don’t call me even when you’re here.
November 1, 2009 at 21:37 (tiqah. (:, when an aussie is associated., when giving up is associated.)
; d’you remember?
November 1, 2009 at 17:14 (tiqah. (:, when crocop is associated., when happiness is associated.)
So long since you’ve been missing
its good to see you again
how are you, how you doin’
and how about we…
don’t let this happen again
There’s nothing left to say.
Don’t waste another day.
Its just you and me tonight,
Everything will be okay.
If its alright with you,
Then its alright with me.
Baby lets take this time,
Lets make new memories.
—————-
Now playing: Jay Sean feat. Sean Paul & Lil Jon – Do You Remember
via FoxyTunes
sunday. weekend is ending! ): on the other hand, tomorrow is the start of week 5! (Y) which means 5 more weeks till school closes for 3 weeks. (Y) which also means, its getting closer to the day where rachel, felicia & wendy will be home. (: &also means, its getting closer till i go off to my getaway. (: (: but on a very low note, it also means the starts of UT1 for sem 2. ): 2 UTs on week 5, 2 UTs on week 6 & 1 last UT on week 7. oh wells. i hope i’ll make it through. really need to improve my GPA grade. &i have also found the delight in staying in RP library to study. love it there. (Y) so i’ll prolly be there for the next 2 week to study for UT. (:
weekends has been good. been sleeping my whole morning off for the past 2 days. did some revision, watched Gossip Girls, watched half of What Happened In Vegas, blogged, twit & other stuffs. (: switched my phone off. (: love the days where i am able to switch my phone off. i’ve come to realized that i’ve been really dependent on my phone & my notebook. need to head to rural life & forget all this stuff. seriously. quality time spent with myself. (: love the journey alone. (: been coming in late to class for the past 2 days. its not good, but hell who cares? LOL. though mom don’t like me coming in to school late. =/ kay, should stop coming late already. (: haven been really feeling all that well for the past days. =/ weather hasn’t been good either. but days has been awesome. (:
last thursday, cognitive was good. though most of them was pissed off with the faci. =/ wanted to leave early cus i had a very bad headache & all BUT decided not too. stayed through whole day & urm, presentation went alright though i don’t expect an A. ): after class went to attend some marketing lecture thingy (Gloria forced us to go, though many didn’t, but i had lots of time on hand, so i just went) with pauline & her other 2 friends. after which, they went home while i went to the library to study & wait for huda to end her ALC. talked to rachel on the phone (: & got some studying done. (Y) huda ended her ALC at like 715 pm & i then made my way down to Astro turf to catch the rugby match between TP & RP. (: main purpose was to see my best mate play cus i never seen his match before. sad right, i know. ): caught the match. (: best game ever. hands down. haha. i got the thrilled seeing RP players kena owned by TP ruggers & also seeing RP ruggers getting tackled by TP ruggers. (: hahah. so obviously, TP won. 33-27. (: caught up w sahail after the match. (: eeyer. so sweaty please. &make me wait for so long. the dood obviously grown. ): i feel damn short now. ): he looks way better than i remember also. haha. plus he showed me his y’know. fcking nice. i’m damn jealous. ): walked to the mrt w huda. caught up sessions. (: take care okay duck? i’ll be here whenever. (:
friday. late for school. haha. had maths. tough questions. we screwed the conclusions. lol. that’s what happened when you cope people slides & didn’t check properly. LOL. owned ttm. met imah after school. studied for a few hours & then head home. (: yeah, friday v boring. lol.
okay, in the midst of planning to book a hotel room in dec. (Y) &i wanna go party please. fcukkk. i still haven gone to PLAY though i don’t think i wanna head down to PLAY now. maybe say, double O, butter fact & several others. (: hehe. anyone wanna jio me go? (: (:
okay shizz. i need to go do my revision. seriously. procrastinating it for too long alrdy. =/ damn lazy to study but have too. it’ll be worth it too study. (: hahah.
dear readers, i now leave you with a song that’s on repeat mode on my itunes. LOVE it ttm! (: (: ♥
xoxoxo-
atiqah.
Protected: so where do i go now?
October 31, 2009 at 22:46 (tiqah. (:, when crocop is associated., when emotions is associated.)
; one word: AWESOME.
October 29, 2009 at 23:36 (tiqah. (:, when crocop is associated.)
&i really mean it. (:
; someday we’ll cross path again. <3
October 28, 2009 at 23:27 (tiqah. (:, when emotions is associated., when love is associated., when music is associated.)
when i look at you
i see forgiveness
i see the truth
you love me for who i am
like the stars hold the moon
right there where they belong and i know
i’m not alone
—————-
Now playing: Miley Cyrus – When I Look At You
via FoxyTunes
&but i just didn't expect that it'll be today.
its funny how seeing someone for a min can unleash all the emotions that have been kept all this time. kay, i gotta admit you’re the last person i want to see. i knew we would someday crossed path again, i just didn’t expect it to be today. its so weird. i mean i do have the occasional thoughts of what we used to be BUT it’ll be quickly gone by how wimp you are. i’m sorry buddy. &i think we still owe one another explanation. but above all, no matter what has happened, i’m still glad i found you as one of my good mates. the one i could go on & on about him to you, only you. thanks. i wish we weren’t strangers anymore BUT i guess this is the best for us. till our path crossed again. (:
lesson today was long & quite boring. i was extremely tired. D: wanted to partial but decided not too. grades last week was nice cept for maths & web & media. i mean i understand why i got a C for maths BUT a C for web & media, is like WTF. an A grade for both cognitive & communication. YAY. see, i told you, i’m getting motivated. today, i came into class & got greeted to a very nice news. NOT. thanks ah ryan for ditching. THANKS.
caught up on Gossip Girls. have yet to watch this week episode though. its already there, i buffered it, but yet to watch it. soon, say tomorrow. hahah.
i don’t feel good. feel sick. like seriously. was freezing in the bus home today. &i was sleeping in the bus & when i woke up i thought i missed my stop BUT of course, i was still far away from home. ): but was totally freezing. ):
xoxoxo-
atiqah.
; jesse mccartney! (:
October 28, 2009 at 10:04 (tiqah. (:)
i’m so gonna get the dog tag. so niceeeeeeeee! (: (: (:
; walking travesty.
October 27, 2009 at 23:19 (tiqah. (:, when emotions is associated., when music is associated.)
give me therapy, i’m a walking travesty
but i’m smiling at everything
therapy, you were never a friend to me
you can take back your misery
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Now playing: All Time Low – Therapy
via FoxyTunes
4th week of school. (Y) we’re getting closer, closer, closer & closer. (Y) i’m getting more & more motivated. YES. school been great. web & media is like wth. i hate the faci, like seriously. damn the faci. ): today all is good. (Y) me & ryan keep bullying roy. LOL. damn funny. lots of laughter. specially after class end. laugh till cannot laugh. all because of what roy said then make me, walton & ryan laugh like nobody business. today such a good day that i don’t even want school to end….NOT. LOL. hahah. but truly, school is good. (Y)
met up w imah ystd. (: nice time catching up. (: good times good times. (: kena cheated. she’s supposed to be telling me her story end up i had to do the story telling. ):
anyway, i miss this babe. (: seriously. (: caught up a lil w her. &we sent emo songs to each other. HAHAH. lets emo together. LOL. y’know i’ll sing it for you~~~ damn sad. cheer up okay babe. (: don’t be sad anymore. i’ll be here. (:
xoxoxo-
atiqah.
; the last serenade. <3
October 23, 2009 at 23:55 (tiqah. (:, when happiness is associated., when life is associated., when music is associated.)
with you it all fades away,
there’s no more words to say
no more you and me.
cause the music left with you.
and now i’m alone on the balcony
with no more song to sing,
only this last serenade
and you know i sing it for you.
—————-
Now playing: Joey Moe – My Last Serenade
via FoxyTunes
i don't want to let you go. <3
3rd week of school has come to an end. (Y) i’m feeling so encouraged. really. 7 more weeks to go till rachel is home. till i go off for a holiday. (Y) till having the possibility of having you here right in front of me. i don’t even want to think about it. yes, i hope you’ll be here BUT i don’t want to put my hopes so high only to end up getting disappointed. =/ so school. cognitive yesterday was awesome. (Y) faci said it was our group best presentation among the 3 weeks. (Y) &she was also absolutely happy with our group performance & all. &the whole class did such a good job ystd that we had no 6P! (Y) wrote a 830 words RJ for her. reason why: i wrote about fairfield. ♥ because it’s true what they say, once a fairsian, always a fairsian. ♥ lesson was fun yesterday. had stupid conversation. LOL. class is getting really close, which is awesome. (Y) today was maths. okay, i totally don’t understand the whole problem shitz. but class was fun. faci was nice. (: 2nd break we had a totally cake smashing time to celebrate delon’s birthday. (: it was fun to play BUT wasn’t fun when your hair & face smells like chocolate. =/ &after that, our class kinda stink & those who sprayed cologne smelled worst. LOL. but we really had a good time.
xoxoxo-
atiqah.
; deep in thoughts. i didn’t caved BUT it didn’t make it any better. </3
October 21, 2009 at 20:53 (tiqah. (:, when music is associated.)
i know you’re always there
to hear my every prayer inside. i’m clinging to,
the promise of a lifetime, i hear the words you say
to never walk away from me & leave behind
the promise of a lifetime
—————-
Now playing: Kutless – Promise Of A Lifetime
via FoxyTunes
hi. i’m sorry for the very not updated blog that i have nowadays. ): not that people actually reads it anyway. but yeah. not in that pretty high up good mood BUT nevertheless, i shall attempt to finish this blog entry. =/
3rd week of school. (Y) 3 days passed. 2 more days to the end of the week. (Y) god knows how i managed to get through the past 3days without you BUT i did. so YAY to me, i guess? so web & new media grades are out. WTF. i got a fcuking C & the faci said i should do more. FUCKKKKKKKKKK. i did the fucking website all by myself & she fucking said i did no fucking thing! WTF. WTF. seriously, WTF. really. anyway, yesterday was good. lots of rubbish between me, ryan & jenelle. LOL. watched stupid videos, thanks to ryan. LOL. today was even better. lots of rubbish between me, jenelle & pauline. (Y) haha. (: class started to bond already, which is good. (Y) today highlight: delon wanting to partial & me & ryan saying out LOUD when faci is still in class. LOL. damn funny. &faci thought ryan wanted to leave class but of course not. LOL. fcked my own presentation today. nice job atiqah. confirm kena downgraded. fuckkkk. ):
anyway, last week was definitely WAY WAY better this week. okay, the week just started & it ain’t that bad BUT y’know. last week was good, i guess. met up with Kelly Anne Choy Yujia like finally. (Y) good time spent w her YAY. talked on the phone w rachel & of course B. (: last week, i deleted the whole lot of msges from somebody. i don’t see the point of keeping them in my phone & no, i’m not angry. last week, i spent time w mummy & sis. (Y) lunched at east coast was awesome. last week, i had such nice time w you in company. it was crazy BUT fun. last week, you kinda broke my heart after a certain message. last week, i don’t know.
i was supposed to write more BUT i just can’t continue no more. ):
xoxoxo-
atiqah.
When I Look At You. Take A Chance. </3
October 5, 2009 at 23:46 (tiqah. (:)
When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I’m not alone
—————-
Now playing: Miley Cyrus – When I Look At You
via FoxyTunes
hello. today is friday. maths module. =/ first week of school ended. school been good. module been fine, well cept for maths. D: but yeah, its been good. got my first grade for this week & yay, an A for Web & New Media Communication. class been fine. all our faci has been nice. (: so yeah, everything all off to a good start. let’s just hope it stays that way for this semester. 1 week down which mean i’m left with 9 weeks of school. (: &then, i’ll be off for a good 5 days of holidays at Langkawi! so, first week has been awesome. (: went for break today w huda. (: i don’t actually remember having lunch w huda in school before. LOL.
brother flew off this morning. D: &i didn’t get to send him off at the airport due to school & i didn’t even get to see him before i went to school cus he hasn’t come over yet! D: i’ll prolly see him next year! D: gah. so long.
&then i realized that we’re no longer friends BUT strangers. for the first time, i didn’t know what to write in that message. its been so long since we spoke that i find myself uncomfortable texting you again. &then i guess at the end of the day, we’re strangers & not friends.
xoxoxo-
atiqah.
