when people you know become people you knew. </3
when friends become acquaintance.when people you know become people you knew.
i find what written on that photo extremely true. so damn true till it got me off-guard. how many people who have been my friends are now acquaintance? every year people walks in & out of my life. the important one & the not-so-important people in my life. over the years, i’ve lost 3 doods. 3 doods that i really want the friendship back. thinking back, i lost all 3 dearly friendship in sec 4. how nice, no? D: to be honest, its not 3 but 2 dudes. both meant the world too me. &it’s seriously sad on how both the friendship slipped away from my hand. we held on so tightly but yet it still managed to slipped away. how sad. it was a friendship that i would have wanted to keep till forever but i guess circumstances didn’t allow that. its not funny how back in fairfield, i would see you on the way to school & we’ll be like fcuking strangers, not acknowledging one another, looking through each other & not saying hi. its not funny having to remember the memories we had when we were friends & then having to look at the present & knows that it can never go like how it use to be. its not funny having to go to school & seeing you & ignoring you. its not funny when even though you know the truth you still stayed by her side. its not funny having to pass the route home that we used to walk together, having all those memories still clearly in me. its not fucking funny having to treat you guys as a fucking strangers!
&now, i see it happening again. &i’m extremely sad. &i’m praying hard. really hard. that it won’t happened again. because its not easy having to deal with it. twice is enough. i don’t want it to happen ever again. its tiring. both mentally, physically & emotionally. i’m tired of having to fight all this away. having to brave through all this. because i just can’t do it anymore.
&so now god, i pray to you allah, please don’t let this be a repeat of what had happened in the previous years. you know how much i’ve suffered just to get over it, so please don’t make it a repeat. all that i asked from you now, allah, is to not let it happened again.
xoxoxo-
atiqah.
