Demi Lovato, Don’t Forget. Stabbed By A Knife. Run Away.

but somewhere we went wrong
we were once so strong
our love is like a song, you can’t forget it.
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Now playing: Demi Lovato – Don’t Forget
via FoxyTunes

sometimes even when you stay, you can't fight the fear away.

so today i nearly stabbed myself with the long sharp kitchen knife while i was doing the dishes. what was i thinking, i certainly don’t know. it was just so tempting. holding the knife in my hands, at that very moment, i swear, i just wanted to like stab myself somewhere. D: thank god, i didn’t or i won’t be here. will be at the hospital, god knows in what condition & i’ll prolly have the police around me for like FAIL ATTEMPT of suicide. wts. life sucks. ):

&life is as screwed as it can get. i don’t know what i’m hanging on too anymore. lost IT. lost YOU. equals to lost EVERYTHING. so why am i still here?

my FAITH. my FAITH. where has it gone too?! why am i not turning to GOD for help?! why am i distancing myself from HIM?! everyday, i do my prayers YET i still feel that i’m not with god, iykwim. oh sighh.

thank god for friends that’s keeping me sane. well, SOME friends. not ALL of course. my 2 girls are counting down to my eighteenth. (: at this point of time, i’m not even looking forward to it. ): ): screw all the stuffs that has gone wrong. SCREW IT. gonna go down to Salvation Army to help out for their Anniversary Sale(?!) so come on down on Saturday, 5th of September to Upper Bukit Timah Salvation Army located near RailWay Mall. (: its from 10 am to 6 pm! (: good bargains. good sale. shop while serving the society. (: &i’ll take photos of your sweet-looking face for freeeeeeeeee cus yours truly, is the PHOTOGRAPHER of the day! (: (: might be going down town to break fast with imah after that. (: can drink Happy Soda. (: haha.

i’m sorry it didn’t worked out. blamed me. its my fcuking fault. i should’ve thought through everything. i’m fucking sorry. ):

i wanna run away. never coming back to this place. this school. if only i could. as fast as i made friends there, i want to forget certain people now. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. ):

FUCK.STOP.HOLDING.ON.I.JUST.WANT.TO.GET.OVER.THIS.FAST.

;fuck like a knife.

xoxoxo-
atiqah.

~ by tiqah on September 3, 2009.