; you. <3
in all honestly, i really don’t know what you want from me. you have her yet you still tell me every single day that you miss me & that you want me. how am i suppose to belief you? you keep on going bout how i don’t miss you & how i don’t want you anymore. if only you knew. i’m possibly the only idiot who wants you more than anything.
would you give me a chance to start over my life? without having you in it, please? 2 guys. i’ve been flirting around with 2 different guys now. but i can’t do anything. the moment the conversation takes a turn, i just get disinterested, thought of you & then i’ll stop. i don’t need them. all i need is you. how am i suppose to move on when every guy i talk to, i just think of you. i don’t want to be kissing them & thinking of you instead.
i’m tired of fighting this battle. all i want is just to take you back, have you in my life. but then i’ll be letting down people who belief in me, most importantly, i’ll be letting down myself. even though, only 2 people believes in me & knows what’s going on, i don’t want to know let them down.
everyday, i still sit here waiting for your text. &everyday, you tell me you miss me. &everyday, i’ll ask you why. a week from now, will you still miss me? a month from now will you still think of me? a year from now will you still remember me? i doubt you will but i know i will. this is gonna take a long time for me to recover.
i gave you a proper explanation. a proper reason. but you still don’t understand. you said i was lying to you yesterday, yes i did lied but the only thing i was lying about was it that it wasn’t meant for you. if you were smart enough, you would of read my fb status & figured everything out. that i never want for us to be over. that i do miss you. that even though i said i don’t want you, i really fcking do want you so bad. but of course, you wouldn’t care.
all i’m asking for is for you to spare a thought for my feelings.
